It happens when your terminal illness leaves you home alone , and unable to drive. Your thoughts become almost like a friend except they do not talk back. Lost in reflection? Is it good or bad? Percentage wise, I reflect on what should I do? Nothing major. How can I take my Grandson Hudson to the Zoo, Beach, and Children museum. I try to leave negative thoughts out of the conversation. I know, on a dreary Friday and I start writing, that it’s a good day. I thank God and the universe for all that is good! PEACE
Defination: recuperate is a verb (used without object)
To recover from sickness or exhaustion; regain health or strength.
A verb (used with object)
To restore to health, vigor, etc.
Radiation side effects are different for most people. For me, the last round of 4 cyberKnife and 10 regular zaps of radiation has been difficult to swing back to normal. I am exhausted and when I stand up an acute sense of Vertigo overcomes me. So, I lye in my bed and rest. After a couple of hours I either fall asleep or try and stand up. What I realize is nerves may be the culprite Nerve pain is not easy to explain. Nerve pain feels like electrical currents that make twitchs and bodily movements on their own. So I rest, and pray the nerves will calm down, and all will return to normal soon.
My way to cope. I have two canes sitting by my bed, and on reserve a wheelchair. The wheelchair and my husbands band has been my entertainment. I sit in my wheelchair and practice wheeling on my deck. It’s fun, and will be useful when I need it. When the band comes over I get to listen to great music. Life is interesting. It is all about how you handle it, and having positive people surrounding you. PEACE
I am participating in a 10,000 word writing challenge, and I am behind. Last week I could not concentrate, and I felt sick. I stayed in bed. So, this is where the challenge comes in. My particular certifiable disability has changed the way my motor skills and brain works.
It is hard to describe how my motor skills and brain has changed since I was diagnosed with lung cancer that metastizeed down the vertebre of my spin, but I wil try. . The cancer literally crushed…fractured 7 verebreas, and recently metastized down my right hip and femer. The nerve damage is significant and causes me alot of pain. I have lost the ability to open my right hand. I type with one finger. Second the nerve damage in my neck has changed the way I can prosses information. It feels like I have both a dominant right lobe and a dominant left lobe. Wierd…I know. so I can only type with one finger on the right hand or one finger on the left hand. When I try to type normally, or in my case two fingers typing in harmony I go crosseyed. I am workng hard to overcome these disabilities. That brings me to the 10,000 word writing challenge.
I still have a few day’s left to complete the challenge before me. The good news is I know writing is not about word count, but the quality of expression. I will never be an Edger Allen Poe. I write because I have too one finger and one brain lobe at a time, Please be kind. Peace!