Cyberknife/Radiation Side Effects

Radiation side effects are different for most people. For me, the last round of 4 cyberKnife and 10 regular zaps of radiation has been difficult to swing back to normal. I am exhausted and when I stand up an acute sense of Vertigo overcomes me. So, I lye in my bed and rest. After a couple of hours I either fall asleep or try and stand up. What I realize is nerves may be the culprite Nerve pain is not easy to explain. Nerve pain feels like electrical currents that make twitchs and bodily movements on their own. So I rest, and pray the nerves will calm down, and all will return to normal soon.

My way to cope. I have two canes sitting by my bed, and on reserve a wheelchair. The wheelchair and my husbands band has been my entertainment. I sit in my wheelchair and practice wheeling on my deck. It’s fun, and will be useful when I need it. When the band comes over I get to listen to great music. Life is interesting. It is all about how you handle it, and having positive people surrounding you. PEACE

CYBERKNIFE-NON-INVASIVE CANCER TREATMENT

Cyberknife, sounds sci-fy, and lying under the robotic machine I felt like a Transformer was working on me. I needed four cyberknife treatments. I named it The Hand. The arms of the Hand helped pinpoint the cancer cells without zapping areas that did not need radiation for various reasons. I also needed traditional radiation in my hip. Ten treatments. I decided to have both treatments at the same time, because I hate cancer cells in my body. Also, summar has arrived and I want to be pain free. Caner hurts.

Side Effects: Fatigue, loss of appetite, vertigo, passing out.

Back from the Fog

Two months ago I underwent ten radiation treatments .  The radiation blasts were located on my L-1 vertebrae.  Which, if you look at the radiations trajectory my stomach and liver were radiated along with then L-1 vertebrae.

I felt tired and nauseous, and I got nothing done except sleep and watch movies.  I know it is important to write consistently, but when you have cancer and undergo poisonous treatments you have to let go of the feelings of being un-productive.  Watch them fly away.  Let your body heal.  Step away!  It sounds easy, but it is not.

While I lied in bed with my tablet and a new Word document staring me in the eyes.  I began to write, but what I quickly noticed,  my words were dark .  In the sense I needed  a person of the cloth to help me rise above the vampires and zombies that were eating my brains.

I decided not to write when I am sick. When my mind is in a fog.  I learned that when my body is fighting cancer my words are brutal… overcast with a tint of hatred.  I prefer to pen expressions that are sharp, crisp and insightful of the human experience.  Not some made up menagerie of bad dreams due to chemical reactions from drugs messing with my brain.

The good news is I am back from the fog, and excited  about the future.  PEACE