It has been five days in the Princess Ann Sentara Hospital. The kind staff have poked and tested me, and today I got the diagnosis.
I have Cancer. My cancer is located in my cervical and lumbar vertebrae. Tomorrow I will have a lumbar puncture with a Methatrexate inserted into the spine. It is a drug that has many uses. For me, Methatrexate is used as a chemo drug for the type of small cell cancer cells attacking my cells.
I have been fighting this disease since 2016. I am not surprised just dissapointed. The procedures I will have makes me sick but keeps me alive. That is all I want. To be here to experience love I have for the experiences I have yet to come. This new diagnostics is not a death sentance just a full time job.
Fighting cancer means a never ending series of tests. This week’s job is to endure brain testing. Saturday morning I had a brain MRI. Which is not painful, but I had contrast shot into my arm that had unpleasant side effects. The next test. Yesterday I had a lumbar puncture. Than tomorrow I am fortunate to have Chemo, and the results of the tests. It is a busy week. I am fortunate I did not contract. Small cell lung cancer a few years ago. It would have been a quick death sentence
I want to thank big Pharma for making the drugs to keep me alive and my doctor and his staff, the excellent Lumbar puncture Dr. She is amazing, and has a nurse that took care of me. She has a thick southern accent and made me laugh. I know I sound over the moon, but with all the sadness of the last few weeks with a man who was unjustly killed. My problems seem small in comparison. God bless America!
Radiation side effects are different for most people. For me, the last round of 4 cyberKnife and 10 regular zaps of radiation has been difficult to swing back to normal. I am exhausted and when I stand up an acute sense of Vertigo overcomes me. So, I lye in my bed and rest. After a couple of hours I either fall asleep or try and stand up. What I realize is nerves may be the culprite Nerve pain is not easy to explain. Nerve pain feels like electrical currents that make twitchs and bodily movements on their own. So I rest, and pray the nerves will calm down, and all will return to normal soon.
My way to cope. I have two canes sitting by my bed, and on reserve a wheelchair. The wheelchair and my husbands band has been my entertainment. I sit in my wheelchair and practice wheeling on my deck. It’s fun, and will be useful when I need it. When the band comes over I get to listen to great music. Life is interesting. It is all about how you handle it, and having positive people surrounding you. PEACE
I wonder how much pain and suffering a person can go through? I saw firsthand the pain of having a tube stuck in your abdomen. The good news is Dave, my husband is on the mend. I pray he continues to get better, and would like to thank my Mom Judy, and all our wonderful friends for coming through for us when we needed you.
Is band practice on for Saturday? Probably not, but in a few weeks, ya man, and always Rock On! PEACE
I have 12 day’s to get ready for my procedure. As I stated in yesterdays post, the last biopsey I had, my blood pressure dropped which made it neccissary to turn off the anestisia. I have been trying to figure out what I did wrong to make my bloopressure drop during the biopsy? In my google research (am I crazy?) I determined, (I am not a doctor.) The anestisia reacted to the medications I was taking? (possible reason) So, I am still taking the exact medications. What can I do other than follow my Doctors instructons?
I decided to juice vegetables and fruits and drink 8 glasses of water day to try and rid my body of built up toxins due to my daily drug regimine. I trust my Oncologist with my life, but his practice does not think that cancer and diet are corolated other than to keep weight on the patient…meat on the bones. I am not on a crazy weight loss diet. I am adding healthy foods into my system, and I feel good. I am also consuming fiber, lean organic protein and green tea.
I feel like I am being pro-active in my fight against the enemy, over active cancer cells. Even if my detox diet has no effect on the next biopsy, maybe I have found a healtier way to eat.
I am participating in a 10,000 word writing challenge, and I am behind. Last week I could not concentrate, and I felt sick. I stayed in bed. So, this is where the challenge comes in. My particular certifiable disability has changed the way my motor skills and brain works.
It is hard to describe how my motor skills and brain has changed since I was diagnosed with lung cancer that metastizeed down the vertebre of my spin, but I wil try. . The cancer literally crushed…fractured 7 verebreas, and recently metastized down my right hip and femer. The nerve damage is significant and causes me alot of pain. I have lost the ability to open my right hand. I type with one finger. Second the nerve damage in my neck has changed the way I can prosses information. It feels like I have both a dominant right lobe and a dominant left lobe. Wierd…I know. so I can only type with one finger on the right hand or one finger on the left hand. When I try to type normally, or in my case two fingers typing in harmony I go crosseyed. I am workng hard to overcome these disabilities. That brings me to the 10,000 word writing challenge.
I still have a few day’s left to complete the challenge before me. The good news is I know writing is not about word count, but the quality of expression. I will never be an Edger Allen Poe. I write because I have too one finger and one brain lobe at a time, Please be kind. Peace!